Monday, 21 March 2011

Failed Again

I did not sleep well last night.  Yesterday, I did not attend to my chores diligently. My work cleaning the kitchen was shoddy.  This caused my long suffering wife to sin by losing her temper with me.  Later when she apologised I grudgingly accepted her apology.

I failed.  I gave poor service to God by my shoddy work.  I caused my wife to sin, later when she apologised I did not reflect Christ acceptance and forgiveness.  I failed.

All I can do is pray not to sin again, and pray for the gifts to be a better reflection of Christ.
I am sorry for my sin, Lord help me not to sin again.

Friday, 4 March 2011

Lord, I am not worthy to receive you

Lord, I am not worthy to receive you
Only say the word and I shall be healed

Lord, I do not know what this world is all about.



Lord, I do not know what this world is all about.
Lord, please give me the grace to do your will.
Lord, your will, not mine.

Thursday, 3 March 2011

My Prayer

Lord, fill my wife with a joy filled spirit.  Restore her health.
Let my eldest son know peace and truth;
Let my younger son know you.
Lord, heal me remove my pride and arrogance;
Fill me with humility.

Wednesday, 2 March 2011

This is a matter of conscience

This is a matter of conscience; it is my conscience that is pricking at me.
The still small voice deep inside says, “This is wrong!”

Humans are innately predisposed with the ability to judge right from wrong.  It is an essential ability that preserves life and helps us moderate society.  Without conscience society would be in chaos.

For the Christian God comes first, or ought to come first, self comes somewhere behind.
Sexual orientation is something of the self.  How I view self, how I express self is unimportant, it is the expression of the divine or the attempt to express the divine nature in all of us that is important.

In any of us much of our nature is a given, we are born with it.  This is the hand we are dealt to live with. Some of our nature is good and to be encouraged, some to be disciplined and discouraged.  Our sexuality is something which we can use for the good, but it needs disciplined and careful use, for the good of the self, the community and creation.  In my heart I believe the correct place for physical expression of our sexuality, of our love is within marriage.  Marriage being the lifelong commitment between a man and a woman, in front of the community and of God, everybody else is called to be celibate.

Christians in faith cannot promote homosexual relationships, regardless how loving they appear to be, they are innately sinful and selfish.  This judgement is anti-Christian, a modern day persecution of Christians.  I denounce this ruling as wrong.  The best way I can respond to my conscience’s scream is to allow self to be turned over to Christ, to be Christ and deny self.  In the hope that I become more Christ like, and thereby enrich and enlighten the world.  In the light of Christ the world may then respond and change it’s view.

I am required to put God first.
Like all other people I am called to holiness.
My response is to respond to the call to be holy as best I can.
Then with God’s grace show to the world his love and will for mankind.

This blog is going to be a record of my personal struggle.
Hopefully, helping others on their own personal journeys.

Tuesday, 1 March 2011

My dilemma


Usually I sleep the sleep of the just.
 
However last night 28th February 2011, I lay awake troubled by what I heard and read in the media. I tossed and turned, I tried to pray, I could neither read nor listen to the radio as my soul was so troubled.  Why was this? It was because  Lord Justice Munby and Mr Justice Beatson ruled that laws protecting people from discrimination because of their sexual orientation "should take precedence" over the right not to be discriminated against on religious grounds.

In UK law this case is a landmark decision, as senior judges ruled so decisively against any idea that attitudes might be justified purely because they were Christian in origin.
Significantly, the court said that while there was a right not to face discrimination on the basis on either religion or sexual orientation, equality of sexual orientation took precedence.
What I perceive that today in this country is that immoral life styles take precedence over Christian lifestyles.

What action can I take?
How should I respond?

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