This is a matter of conscience; it is my conscience that is pricking at me.
The still small voice deep inside says, “This is wrong!”
Humans are innately predisposed with the ability to judge right from wrong. It is an essential ability that preserves life and helps us moderate society. Without conscience society would be in chaos.
For the Christian God comes first, or ought to come first, self comes somewhere behind.
Sexual orientation is something of the self. How I view self, how I express self is unimportant, it is the expression of the divine or the attempt to express the divine nature in all of us that is important.
In any of us much of our nature is a given, we are born with it. This is the hand we are dealt to live with. Some of our nature is good and to be encouraged, some to be disciplined and discouraged. Our sexuality is something which we can use for the good, but it needs disciplined and careful use, for the good of the self, the community and creation. In my heart I believe the correct place for physical expression of our sexuality, of our love is within marriage. Marriage being the lifelong commitment between a man and a woman, in front of the community and of God, everybody else is called to be celibate.
Christians in faith cannot promote homosexual relationships, regardless how loving they appear to be, they are innately sinful and selfish. This judgement is anti-Christian, a modern day persecution of Christians. I denounce this ruling as wrong. The best way I can respond to my conscience’s scream is to allow self to be turned over to Christ, to be Christ and deny self. In the hope that I become more Christ like, and thereby enrich and enlighten the world. In the light of Christ the world may then respond and change it’s view.
I am required to put God first.
Like all other people I am called to holiness.
My response is to respond to the call to be holy as best I can.
Then with God’s grace show to the world his love and will for mankind.
This blog is going to be a record of my personal struggle.
Hopefully, helping others on their own personal journeys.
